A life not recorded is a life not lived.
Breath captured by ink, picked up by paper, viewed by eyes, processed by the mind, and if worth while stored in the heart.
Each word recorded has the potential to be a seed of great value.
Each day alive is not lived for you alone.
A road to nowhere makes its way onto a map which ends at a tunnel of fear & Hope.
Once through and hope is restored a series of paths to be chosen only one choice to be made.
Walking through the density of life much trouble is revealed.
Innate senses say to flee but the tracks laid before pull saying to go forth.
A destination finally reach and a journey back seems easy.
Each step taken opens the doors of the heart untouched by God and hidden from man.
Streams now flow from the wells of eyes as sorrows of chapters already lived are rehearsed to the author of life.
One answer to many questions is whispered through the still air, "You did not go through this for yourself, but to bring someone else through."
With your life, bring someone else through.
With your words, bring someone else through.
Record Life!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Friendship is a Journey
Why do you speak to me when I shut down, close myself off and act rude toward you?
Because behind the rudeness & selfishness you have a heart of Gold. If no one ever takes the time to try and love you past above and beyond your set backs how can you ever truly rise above them.
God treats us like this, he loves us in spite of us not for anything we have done but because he knows what in us & cares for our soul.
I may not know what is fully wrapped up in u but what I have have seen is enough for me to look past you shutting down and closing yourself off. I have to be willing to take you as you are to see you get to where you need to be.
You love hard, and loving ain't easy so I don't expect getting into ya heart to be easy but I present myself as truthful as possible, with open ears and an open heart, to listen & understand what makes you who you are.
So my focus has to go beyond you & me but has to be God, because he created everything and it is to his glory that we even met, so the more I can focus on God the better I can relate to & with you.
Building a friendship is a journey, it is just as complicated as an intimate relationship because it is an intimate relationship with out the physical intimacy. These words are for those who want to build TRUE friendships, ones that last, ones that endure hard times, ones that sacrifice for one another, God like friendships, Christ like friendships, that will put their lives on the line for another.
Because behind the rudeness & selfishness you have a heart of Gold. If no one ever takes the time to try and love you past above and beyond your set backs how can you ever truly rise above them.
God treats us like this, he loves us in spite of us not for anything we have done but because he knows what in us & cares for our soul.
I may not know what is fully wrapped up in u but what I have have seen is enough for me to look past you shutting down and closing yourself off. I have to be willing to take you as you are to see you get to where you need to be.
You love hard, and loving ain't easy so I don't expect getting into ya heart to be easy but I present myself as truthful as possible, with open ears and an open heart, to listen & understand what makes you who you are.
So my focus has to go beyond you & me but has to be God, because he created everything and it is to his glory that we even met, so the more I can focus on God the better I can relate to & with you.
Building a friendship is a journey, it is just as complicated as an intimate relationship because it is an intimate relationship with out the physical intimacy. These words are for those who want to build TRUE friendships, ones that last, ones that endure hard times, ones that sacrifice for one another, God like friendships, Christ like friendships, that will put their lives on the line for another.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
More talk
I never really used this blog thing as a place to record thoughts but i think i like the idea, maybe it will help me talk less and think more...lol....but yeah fa real.
South Africa I am coming sorry for the delay and the dragging of my feat but you a far way away and thats a big move, and my faith is being built for me to walk out on those waters, but im coming baby.
This summer is lookin good imm excited Asia i got my ticket just waitin for the date to bounce...Ima be leaving people who i love and care for for a whole month but experiencing new things, and sights, FOOD UMMM, and people, so it will be a bitter sweet trip but more sweet I hope.
"OH Lord how I miss meh country four years now i livin in Charlotte as soon as ah geh some money ah comin home ah comin home....." Trinidad will be my last summer excursion that i know of. I am definitely excited about that haven't been home in so long and there will be much fun to be had hanging out with family so Trinidad here I come....and an America friend of mine is coming too he as red neck as they get which will be hilarious but a good time none the less....
I realize and am fortunate that I am blessed the way I am, it didn't come with out its share of weight and sorrow but I am oh so thankful for it all....
I wounder if my dad is actually gonna come to my graduation...i spoke to him for the first time in like 5.5 to 6 years last week, he said he always knew i would do well and that i will be famous, he said he knew it since i was a child...umh i wish someone would have to me that comin up.....It would be good if he came i guess i really cant get excited or too hopeful about this all but I pray that God really allows what needs to happen to happen....it just kinda sucks ya know....found him got his number called laughed a bit...then back to silence.....C'est la vie right....
This has been an interesting time i feel like im on a roller coaster ya know, one day im good got money in the bank bills paid feeling good being generous, next few weeks broke, next few days having a great time wit God, next few day feeling lost, next few day feelin smug, next few awesome cuz church was great and I had my meeting with my small group earlier that week, next week ehh mixed with blah and an opps dash of bitterness, then a health packed week of gym and good eating, and through it all i been keepin my hands up.....i swear it makes me so thankful for the little things in life. Seeing God in the little things enjoys "precious sweetness" which always adds to my day, helping a friend out, praying with and for people, and the awesome privilege to talk to God and take everything to Him big and small and he hears and cares and helps me with it all what a father, Mother, Friend,Counselor, head lifer, and the list goes on....
if you have added to my life I thank you, if you have taken away from it or tried to by comin at me wrong, talkin bout me in ways you wouldnt to my face, did some grimmy behind the back crap, tried to use me, or what eva thanks for making me better not bitter.....but im done for now......
South Africa I am coming sorry for the delay and the dragging of my feat but you a far way away and thats a big move, and my faith is being built for me to walk out on those waters, but im coming baby.
This summer is lookin good imm excited Asia i got my ticket just waitin for the date to bounce...Ima be leaving people who i love and care for for a whole month but experiencing new things, and sights, FOOD UMMM, and people, so it will be a bitter sweet trip but more sweet I hope.
"OH Lord how I miss meh country four years now i livin in Charlotte as soon as ah geh some money ah comin home ah comin home....." Trinidad will be my last summer excursion that i know of. I am definitely excited about that haven't been home in so long and there will be much fun to be had hanging out with family so Trinidad here I come....and an America friend of mine is coming too he as red neck as they get which will be hilarious but a good time none the less....
I realize and am fortunate that I am blessed the way I am, it didn't come with out its share of weight and sorrow but I am oh so thankful for it all....
I wounder if my dad is actually gonna come to my graduation...i spoke to him for the first time in like 5.5 to 6 years last week, he said he always knew i would do well and that i will be famous, he said he knew it since i was a child...umh i wish someone would have to me that comin up.....It would be good if he came i guess i really cant get excited or too hopeful about this all but I pray that God really allows what needs to happen to happen....it just kinda sucks ya know....found him got his number called laughed a bit...then back to silence.....C'est la vie right....
This has been an interesting time i feel like im on a roller coaster ya know, one day im good got money in the bank bills paid feeling good being generous, next few weeks broke, next few days having a great time wit God, next few day feeling lost, next few day feelin smug, next few awesome cuz church was great and I had my meeting with my small group earlier that week, next week ehh mixed with blah and an opps dash of bitterness, then a health packed week of gym and good eating, and through it all i been keepin my hands up.....i swear it makes me so thankful for the little things in life. Seeing God in the little things enjoys "precious sweetness" which always adds to my day, helping a friend out, praying with and for people, and the awesome privilege to talk to God and take everything to Him big and small and he hears and cares and helps me with it all what a father, Mother, Friend,Counselor, head lifer, and the list goes on....
if you have added to my life I thank you, if you have taken away from it or tried to by comin at me wrong, talkin bout me in ways you wouldnt to my face, did some grimmy behind the back crap, tried to use me, or what eva thanks for making me better not bitter.....but im done for now......
Not complaining just sayin
Well school is done, grades are in cap and gown has been picked up and family is on the way......excitement should be in the air but.......yeah its not here. I feel it trying to rise up and it will peak its head for but a moment like a familiar fragrance in the wind and then it disappears. The weight of it all is coming now, i have no more insurance from my parent, no real job yet, doing a lil temp work but nothin consistent....but lord us it as a context for blessings to flow.....
I know I will be alright..I know who my provider is and that He has definitely been supply for me for a minute now i can definitely say that but I'm ready to get it together...
I am a man man now.....I been paying my own bills for a while now handling my funds, paying my tithes, taking care of those pop up money drainers, and helping others out.
Now I am really really on my own, now comes the even bigger bills, health care, hopefully mortgage, savings, a woman lol the biggest yet most fulfilling bill lmao lol, idk life comes at you fast, and that's why I pray.
I know i got more to do with life other that just my profession of choice so i know i got that coming soon, i have lots of traveling coming up which i thank God for but when I return from it all the real world will be waiting, fists ready, pot holes hidden, weapons formed, and road blocks in place. I have only one weapon and that is faith which is powered by the word of God. So i am truly not complaining but I see whats coming and I am just praying for help and guidance, I am on the road to being wealthy in finances. God has richly blessed me with the love of friends, family both by blood and spirit, and new relationships that are being built that bless my life far greater than that green. So I press to let the green catch up with the rest. God teach me how to live in this world, using wisdom and discernment in my decision making. I want a family and they will be looking for me to provide, shucks I'm looking for me to provide, teach me how to be more Froogle and wise about saving and investing, please send me all the people i will need to help me in this venture.
Thank you for making a way for those who came before me and those who will be coming after and I know you can do it for me to, I ask and I seek, Knock Knock, so I will continue till i receive, find, and a door is open, waiting with expectancy and pre thanksgiving. Amen
Use me while I am on this process, to help others, and bring you more glory.
I know I will be alright..I know who my provider is and that He has definitely been supply for me for a minute now i can definitely say that but I'm ready to get it together...
I am a man man now.....I been paying my own bills for a while now handling my funds, paying my tithes, taking care of those pop up money drainers, and helping others out.
Now I am really really on my own, now comes the even bigger bills, health care, hopefully mortgage, savings, a woman lol the biggest yet most fulfilling bill lmao lol, idk life comes at you fast, and that's why I pray.
I know i got more to do with life other that just my profession of choice so i know i got that coming soon, i have lots of traveling coming up which i thank God for but when I return from it all the real world will be waiting, fists ready, pot holes hidden, weapons formed, and road blocks in place. I have only one weapon and that is faith which is powered by the word of God. So i am truly not complaining but I see whats coming and I am just praying for help and guidance, I am on the road to being wealthy in finances. God has richly blessed me with the love of friends, family both by blood and spirit, and new relationships that are being built that bless my life far greater than that green. So I press to let the green catch up with the rest. God teach me how to live in this world, using wisdom and discernment in my decision making. I want a family and they will be looking for me to provide, shucks I'm looking for me to provide, teach me how to be more Froogle and wise about saving and investing, please send me all the people i will need to help me in this venture.
Thank you for making a way for those who came before me and those who will be coming after and I know you can do it for me to, I ask and I seek, Knock Knock, so I will continue till i receive, find, and a door is open, waiting with expectancy and pre thanksgiving. Amen
Use me while I am on this process, to help others, and bring you more glory.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Do you really want a drink......
This cup shall not pass, so I consume it, for the content is what I must become.
Picked when my season comes,
crushed and bruised being drained of all my content only to be shut in and fermented by the sting of the beaten just received.
We were not meant to be consumed by our cup, but to consume it and stand with it in us carrying it around till it is time to lay it down and say that it is finished.
Some call me crazy for drinking the cup full of sorrow & pain for the sake of expressing true love.
But, those were my instruction, that was the example given, and there has not been a greater one since.
Cheers, bottoms up, Ohpa.......
Here goes everything
Pray I can keep it down.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Why Wine
Wine servers it purpose, to sooth and relax.
Sit back and enjoy the simple complexities of life.
Stopping to smell the buttery floral fruity spiceyness of chard oak.
Is that not like life? Filled with so much joy and peace to the point of eruption and yet bound in chard barrel of life's dirtiest hand, and sealed with God's amazing grace.
We are just but ordinary people yet we fight ourselves and others for the sake of individuality. We are ordinary in that we do not need to fight to be extra-ordinary.
We are above and beyond ordinary and yet and still we kill for a bill that has nothing to with who we are or what we can do.
Extra-ordinary, extraordinarily amazing people, hiding behind a mask they were never meant to wear.
We are nothing but crushed people fermented by the air of life and bound in the chared barrels of our existance, sustained by grace.
Isn't it amazing that we can smell like flowers yet grew up in someone else crap.
Have hints of tropical fruit but were mass produced on the side of a mountain with no fruit in sight except for us.
Tastes of honey and lavender, though dipped in sorrow, almost drowning.
A simple grape; what a taste affliction produce, when refined in a barrel that went through the flames, and made it through still strong enough to hold us and refine us in to a beautiful glass of wine.
Sit back and enjoy the simple complexities of life.
Stopping to smell the buttery floral fruity spiceyness of chard oak.
Is that not like life? Filled with so much joy and peace to the point of eruption and yet bound in chard barrel of life's dirtiest hand, and sealed with God's amazing grace.
We are just but ordinary people yet we fight ourselves and others for the sake of individuality. We are ordinary in that we do not need to fight to be extra-ordinary.
We are above and beyond ordinary and yet and still we kill for a bill that has nothing to with who we are or what we can do.
Extra-ordinary, extraordinarily amazing people, hiding behind a mask they were never meant to wear.
We are nothing but crushed people fermented by the air of life and bound in the chared barrels of our existance, sustained by grace.
Isn't it amazing that we can smell like flowers yet grew up in someone else crap.
Have hints of tropical fruit but were mass produced on the side of a mountain with no fruit in sight except for us.
Tastes of honey and lavender, though dipped in sorrow, almost drowning.
A simple grape; what a taste affliction produce, when refined in a barrel that went through the flames, and made it through still strong enough to hold us and refine us in to a beautiful glass of wine.
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